day 4

surgical masks are the best things ever!

well, maybe not, but compared to suffocating behind the n95, i have no complains about wearing a puny surgical mask, at least i get to breathe :D

thought i would feel better after celebrating my birthday yesterday (a mid-week pick me up!), but no, i'm just as tired today :(



covered my friend's ward today since she was post-call, that just means that i ran the usual ward i'm in by myself!



today was a really crap day at bloods, i failed every single blood and plug i had, it's really depressing. i think mentally i was defeated before i even tried drawing the last blood! :(

thankfully thankfully thankfully, when i called the junior resident (JR), he came bustling down right away and helped me clear tonnes of the work in the ward, he's so super fast!!! i think knowing what to do helps you do it fast, and the experience really helps.



i felt so lousy next to him, but he kindly reassured me that it was normal and he started out like that too, and that at the end of 1 year i'd be like him. :D

i hope so too, i hope so too!!!! keeping my fingers crossed :)



anwyay work wise today wasn't so bad, because we had intern teaching session (that my ward partner and i fell asleep during, such is the heavy work of our ward that we're super tired out). rather embarrassing that we were sleeping in front of the nurse manager :\ i hope she didn't think we were insulting her, we were really just tired out :(



it's really hard to get away from the ward, we tried to leave but the nurses just kept asking us to do things, and it's hard to turn them down as well cos you feel guilty. :\



i had this patient who came in for a minor op, supposed to be home by evening, but nooooo, she bled and bled and bled when we removed the ribbon gauze. the JR was rather shocked too, i think, because it wasn't expected at all. in the end, 3 JRs and 1 senior resident came down to review her whilst i ran around doing other things. my knees are black from kneeling by the patient's bedsides for various things! but that's the least of my complaints haha.



the saddest thing today was this young lady who came in for an abortion, because of foetal anomaly. she was alright all through my taking consent, attempting to draw blood (and failing rather miserably!), but when i inserted the cervagem, she started crying. it wasn't from the pain, but from the sadness. i felt so so bad for her. they're sending the foetus for post-mortem and doing an extensive workup on her as well, but i think it's really quite traumatic and she really wanted this baby i think. you could see the sadness in her eyes, somehow. her husband was really lovely, being supportive and everything, but i could see his sorrow as well.

sometimes life isn't fair, and i think this couple would really have made quite a good pair of parents. the lady really reminds me of one of my friends. i hope they find peace, somehow