happy new year everyone!

this new year, i'll be moving on from one posting to another - from orthopaedics to general medicine (GM).

suffice to say it strikes terror into my heart! in ortho, i have practising "voodoo medicine" and the patient's medical management is left almost entirely up to ME. and when in doubt, refer!

furthermore, this will be my last posting (provided i don't fail!) as an intern and hence, i'm expected to know more than a fresh intern out of medical school. i have completed 2/3 of my intern year!

the scary thing about doing OB/GYN and ortho first is that your patients are generally well patients. collapses are few and far between. sick patients are usually sent to HD or ICU for anaesthetists to manage. but in GM, sick patients are everywhere!
my friends in medicine have told me to expect a minimum of 1 collapse/resus/code blue a night. OH DEAR ME! i have never run a resus before. i can only hope my resident will be by my side or else it will be terrible.

i have no idea how to manage hyperkalaemia/DKA/AMI/fluid overload/etc etc by myself!!! i mean, i know the theory of it all but i have no idea how to do it practically. how much iv insulin do i give in DKA????? it all boggles me!

thankfully my next hospital is a small garden hospital which is supposed to be one of the best places to do internship in as the patient load is lighter and the profs are really pro-teaching and very forgiving. i hope it's reputation holds! :)

i am extremely sad to leave ortho - the orthopods have become friends and they are really some of the nicest/most easygoing/funniest people i know. (let's not talk about medical management here haha) at our farewell, the attendings came up to us one by one to wish us good luck for the future postings and expressed thanks for us working in their department. i was pretty touched! more than one attending has told me to come back to work them in the future as a resident (i'm the only one out of the outgoing interns with a surgical slant), and a few have said they can possibly see me in ortho.
i find that all very nice but i'm rather dubious about my own skills in ortho! then again, after doing step up calls i suppose word has gotten out.
i will really miss 2 of the senior residents though - they were more like friends to me rather than bosses. i remember texting one of them after my first ever mortality in despair, and he called me up instantly after to ask how i was, and patiently listened whilst i sobbed my head off over the phone. i was incredibly touched!

the thing i will miss the most about ortho is the nurses and my fellow interns.
finding such a great bunch of nurses elsewhere is near impossible, and these nurses are really good! they will call families/surgeons/pacify patients/set plugs/take bloods etc for you, and they buy me food and drinks on call too. much love!!!! being on call in my favourite ward is like being surrounded by a huge extended family, they even cook me dinner! :)

as for my fellow interns, i will greatly miss our bitching sessions and much laughter and hilarious stories. it was amazing working with you guys and i think having people whom you get along well with is such a boon! :)

a new year brings new hope, but this year i'm cutting the new year resolutions, pretty pointless for me to do them because i never follow them anyway hahaha.

may the new year bring you new dreams/hopes, and may you all never be short of kindness, goodness and love :)