2.5 months to go

the end of my intern year is in sight!

only 2.5 months to go, the thought is making me joyous and yet terrified at the same time. i will be fully registered in 2.5 months! no longer can i hide behind the P letter anymore. i will not be able to ask my resident anything and everything on the pretext that i am only a dumb intern. i will be the resident. OH HORRORS.

but that will also mean that i have less stupid things to do. hehe. hopefully that means more free time! :D

my current ward is like heaven, after last month's ward and team. this team is super nice, everyone is patient and kind. plus my fellow intern and my immediate boss (junior resident) are really lovely guys and i adore them to bits to taking great care of me! they shoo me off post call by noon, they help out with sticky situations, and we really click very well :)

the saddest thing so far has been having a code blue activated on a palliative care patient.
it all happened so fast! my first ever code blue. passed by in a complete blur. we didnt' even have time to check the files, just asked the nurses who all agreed patient was for active resus. bagged the patient, tubed, set femoral lines, shocked the patient, and then sent him to icu only to find out that he was for palliative care. OH MY GOODNESS what have we done.
was most terribly upset after realising that.

but i guess, in every resus, you resus until proven DNR. it is a delicate situation, but a decision must be made.

i can only hope he passed away in peace